Partly Cloudy Sara...

So I believe today I hit a wall....a solid brick one.  I woke up in a funk and figured I just needed some coffee...negative, it didn't help.  Even my lovely hours in the morning with Rudi (which normally is my favorite part of the day) could not lift the dark cloud that was hovering above my head.  I kept trying to rally for the day but just couldn't.  I showered, got dressed, walked out of my room and ran almost smack into Lauren and George.  I must have had an awful frown on my face because Lauren laughed and said " George look at that face...that's the grumpiest tourist I have ever seen!"  George glanced up at me, flashed me a cheeky grin and turned away....I felt like he had just told me with out words " Nice pity party...enjoy it alone you silly girl"  Man I love that kid...calling me out with just one look!
I did finally get out of the house with some gentle pushing from  Lauren and Belinda only to be met with a dramatic weather change.  Leaving the house it was bright and sunny....by the time I reached the tube station there was thunder, lightning and hail.

 Seriously....I should not have gotten out of bed today.  I should have stayed there being....as Rudi says..."Cozy Warm"
As you can probably guess my "grump" demeanor continues.  Everyone around me is irritating and I am pretty sure I have perma-frown.   I force myself through the museum I am at since I went through hail (not a typo...I actually walked through pelting hail) to get there.
I make it home in the evening and Belinda and Lauren ask "How was your day?"  and all I can say is "I am the biggest grump right now!"  They just laugh and we start talking through my funk.
After talking with them I realize that I started putting too much pressure on myself to not miss anything and I really need a break.  I want to be able to see and do it all but that is not physically possible.  With my time here getting so close to being over I had a momentary thought of what if I miss something important?  What if I miss making a connection I should have made?  What if? What if? What if?....
These lovely ladies who have become my great friends and support system here gave me a gentle reminder that I still need to rest and take some time just to be in London.  That was what I wanted from the beginning out of this trip and the thought of leaving made me loose sight of that.
This trip has been orchestrated perfectly since it's crazy beginning 8 days before I left the states without me controlling it at all so I need to continue to allow that to happen.  I have loved every minute I have been here so far and need to continue on the same way....doing whatever I want not living like a tourist who has to see everything because they have limited time.  I have already made amazing life changing friends here who I will be able to come visit whenever I want so leaving here in a few days won't be good bye it will just be see you later.
The dark cloud has lifted...Sunny Sara is back!